Let The Truth Be Told

It's Monday.

Just another manic Monday.

I thank God I have a job but it is always so hard to go back there after vacation. When I'm away from the madness of my job I feel so so inspired. I fall for my own hype that one day [someday] I can actually save the world.

:sigh:

Then back to reality. I like my job. I love my job, actually. I could do it for hours on end with no real problem. Helping people get enrolled in college? That's my jumpoff. Not only do I get to help people, but I help them get educated. The hours are wearing me down though. I wish my hours were 8 to 4 or 9 to 5. Also, the bs that comes with this job is wearing me down. :/

Being a grown up is tough work sometimes.

But, I'm here to live it, ups and downs and all.

This weekend was a blah one. Went to church on Saturday. I was getting so fed up with waiting on Mr. Man I was fixing to leave him and go to church on my own. :sigh: He's always late. I don't know why it irritated me on this particular day. Well partially because I didn't want to have an awkward conversation with my mom. She knows we're having sex and to her it's hypocritical for us to be having sex and not be married. I won't even go into the doctrine on that one, because Mr. Man and I have a different understanding...but more importantly, I like going to church. I'm trying to live my life the best way I know how. I don't want to leave that part out. So, my mom just kind of eyeballing me was making me anxious to leave. And the fact that I was anxious was adding to my impatience because I didn't want to be late. I went and waited for Mr. Man on the bus stop. I did want him to know that I don't like being late to church. He was getting a little touchy feely about it and I could tell. His bottom line response: don't. ever. leave. me. period. LOL. I really wasn't leaving [for real for real] I just wanted him to know that the thought possibly kind of crossed my mind to teach him a lesson. He got the point, lol. We didn't do anything else on that day because he fell asleep. Then after he woke up, I fell asleep, lol.

We've been apartment hunting [somewhat online, somewhat hitting the pavement]. I really wanted us to go big and get a house but I am realizing that is a way bigger commitment than either of us is willing to make just now. I still am looking into it, because even if we get married next year and have to rent, I only expect to do that a year - maybe two years tops. Truthfully, my credit is in the crapper [lesson learned!] and I'm still paying off my debts. Chicago is a beast. Houses are so damn expensive here. It's actually pretty discouraging, but I've been looking into these housing assistance corporations, and they give me hope that maybe within the next 1 or 2 years, I can have my own garden and what not. :)Otherwise, apartment hunting is not what's hot. I've got my wants and he's got his wants...but I find that more and more we're meeting in the middle. Like for instance, I have won the washer + dryer battle (in-unit). Score! Basically, he was firm on his position of a laundry room until I said: "I like to wash in the middle of the night. What if I want to wash clothes in the middle of the night in my panties? You've taken that away from me." He looked at me with his mouth open. He said "No you wouldn't do that..." I was like "Dude, do I not do everything in my panties when I get the chance?" And he thought about it. And caved on his original position.

Check.&.Mate. Sex trumps reason almost every time. I don't know why this troubles me...lol. It should be empowering...lol.

And I would like to say this is just a male thing, but I don't think so. Me personally? Like I would give a crap if he washed clothes in his boxers! Wouldn't do much for me at all, lol.

Anyway...I felt like sharing this awesometastic artist...Laura Izibor..I am finding that I like most music from across the pond..these girls can sang...it's one of the few albums in my rotation right about nizzow... :) I'm looking to add Maxwell to my repertoire within the next week..not until payday though...was sposed to get it for my bday *pouts* but I didn't get it...Amazon sent out the wrong CD. So until then...Laura Izibor from Ireland...