I Coulda Been In Love By Now If It Wasn't For T.O.N.Y.

While I go back and forth on how I feel about Beyonce, I have never felt that way about Solange. I love her music, love her album, love her imperfect, unique, little self. Solange is the typical little sister. T.O.N.Y. (which cleverly stands for The Other Night, Why?) is one of my favorite songs. It's not about some perfect, undying love - and it's not totally man bashing. It's just an honest song about engaging in an act and contemplating the repercussions of that one night stand. It talks about how many more women could possibly be in love if we weren't so hasty to settle for lust that often simulates love. 

Where would I be without music? I just don't know. 

I am doing fine, fine, fellow bloggers, thanks for asking. :-) It is hard for me to comment because I have bene working a lot of overtime lately. I was musing how I've been with Mr. Man a year, and when we first met I was rushing in to do overtime at work. A year later, my office is still shortstaffed, and I'm still running in to do overtime at work. People need jobs yet my position has been vacant for a little under a year. Shame, shame, shame. 

Mr. Man and I had a disagreement. I was really upset with him. I think that I took a small situation and made it a big one (actually I know I did). It all would have been avoided had I done a better job of expressing how I just wanted to see him on Friday after the hellacious week I had. Sometimes I feel so weird about expressing aloud how bad I want to just be in Mr. Man's presence. It makes me feel needy or something. Blame it on pride, or whatever. But I suppose after a year it is perfectly acceptable to just want to be with my man. Even more so to admit it aloud. 

As usual, after talking it over (I was perfectly impossible the next day I did see him, which was Saturday) I felt pretty goofy for carrying on the way I was. Since I couldn't see him Friday, when I did see him I was a brat and wasted hours I'll never get back unnecessarily beefing. He took it in stride and seemed to think it was awfully adorable, not once did I sense an ounce of aggravation or frustration from him. He just held me in the way that he always does and kissed me on my cheek and forehead and reiterated that he loved me. 

It was nice, even though it was brief. Brief because on alternate weekends he has his daughter. That is always pleasant to me. I wish things were different in that situation, because I can't imagine how his daughter is dealing with not having her father on a constant basis. It must be so confusing. I only pray that her mother is handling the situation properly. Today I had to go to the grocery store by his house, and he had his daughter. I told him I would be brief (it was my intention.) He actually asked me to call him when I was done, so I could see him briefly. See him and his daughter? On his initiative, not mine? Of course! I was nervous, I was scared, I was shopping furiously. 

And then, I missed my shot, lol. He told me that he only had a short amount of time before his cousin came to take them out to eat, lol. He called me back in half an hour and told me that she had arrived and would be taking them to Mickey Ds. His cousin has a daughter the same age as his, so she would have a playmate for a few hours. I was glad. Glad that he was with his daughter. Glad they were having fun. Glad I was invited for 10 minutes, lol. I know it might not seem like a big deal, but it is. We both agree that just introducing children to random people wasn't a good look. It's just not responsible. Kids need continuity. Introducing them to your latest jumpoff could be plain dangerous. Everybody don't got good sense. As well, I'm uneasy when people just want to meet another person's kids right off. Given that both of us wanted to grow on all levels it was just agreed that he, she, and I would meet when the time was right. And I'm glad that he's initiated that. Even then, I still realize that their time together is so limited, and I wouldn't want to infringe. So, the invite was a big deal, lol. 

Anyway, I had more to write, but I'm sleepy. Hasta la vista bebes.