Midnight Bottle

Blame it on the a-a-a-nxiety, blame it on the web, blame it on Google. My imagination was driving me crazy. Sure, I was bleeding, but I didn't know why. Never did it dawn on me that I could really be getting my period twice within a 5 week period.

But that is absolutely what the situation was.

I went to the ER and it appears that my babbling to the doctor was completely incoherent. She looked at me like she had no idea what I was in there for until I told her "Well I googled vaginal bleeding - and it said ALL these things could be wrong."

:/

That's the face I got from the doctor - she completely understood A) how I was scared out of my mind and B) why I couldn't wait one more second to see what was REALLY going on.

Of course, I had to spread the legs so she could look. Said everything looked fine, healthy, no abrasions, bumps, etc. She swabbed my cervix and said at best, having taken Plan B, I probably experienced my period much sooner than expected. Also, I had to take in consideration for April - my period was nowhere to be found. Go figure. You all have no idea how good I felt after speaking to the doctor, my mind was clear - and I physically felt better. The next morning I woke up, I noticed the familiar feeling in my belly from being on my period. I was thankful.

I started school this week. Not my second Masters though. I enrolled in a class at the school I work at to defer my loans. Thank God for that. I really could not have afforded to start paying my loans back, as well, my mind needs the stimulation. I enrolled in a Psychology course. If I ever decide to pursue yet another Master's degree (lol) I could always choose Poli Sci or Psychology. I doubt it though. Most likely I would begin pursuit of my doctorate. My mom wants me to start that sooner than later, but I'm not wholly interested in that. How much time can a person spend in school? Especially when I have aspirations of starting my own school. I certainly want my doctorate, but I have to get in the community sooner than later! I'm sure you all know how parents can be, though. My mom thinks it's more likely for me to get knocked up than complete my studies. (Oh she of little faith!)

My cousin is having a BBQ this weekend that I can't attend. First off, it's on the Sabbath. Second off, I won't be able to eat anything that's cooked - I don't eat red meat or pork. She was pretty understanding about it, but I wish I had more people that understood or could relate to keeping the Sabbath. When I say I keep it, a lot of people just kind of look and say "Oh". It's not just "Oh." When the rest of the free world keeps the Sabbath on Sunday and society is meant to operate in that way it's hard to refrain from doing things on Saturday when you work all week, and on Sundays to try to get things done is difficult because most places are closed. (I'm not complaining, just explaining)I'm doing okay, but I suppose I could be doing a lot lot better. I'm getting there slowly but surely.

I need to get ready for work. Peace!